My chest was pounding My lips were tied, I couldn't speak I thought I was dying You wouldn't know, cause you left me You had a midlife crisis At 27 years old While I was sacrificing Everything so you could grow So I called my mom in LA She swore I was on drugs I tried to call my dad, he wasn't awake You see the truth was It's not even about you It's not even about you Maybe I had this coming I cling to people I know I shouldn't trust I'm just trying to save, who's saving me I'm confused and you were sent with love I'm in this new apartment I can't breathe cause I'm alone I'm crawling in a bed a little wasted But I'm not drunk enough to let you go So I called my mom in LA She swore I was on drugs I tried to call my dad, he wasn't awake You see the truth was It's not even about you It's not even about you I was there for you, never walked away When you needed me, didn't check on myself It's hard not to think about forever But I shouldn't be telling your number So I called my mom in LA She swore I was on drugs I tried to call my dad, he wasn't awake You see the truth was It's not even about you It's not even about you It's all about me It's all about me It's all about me I don't want to go there, I do, I just hate it