I walked through the door with you
The air was cold
But something about it felt like
Home somehow And I
left my scarf there at your sister's
house And you've still got it in your drawer even
now
Oh,
you sweet disposition in my wide-eyed gaze I'm singing in the car,
getting lost,
upstate
Autumn leaves falling down like
pieces into place And I can picture it
after all these days
And I know it's long gone and that magic's not here no more
And I might be okay, but I'm not fine at all
Cause there we are again on that little town street
You almost ran the red cause you were looking over at me
Wound in my hair,
I was there I remember it all too well
Photo album on the counter Your cheeks were turning red
You used to be a little kid with glasses in a twin-size bed
Your mother's telling stories about you on the t-ball team
You taught me about your past,
thinking your future was me
And you were tossing me the car keys,
* the patriarchy
Keychain on the ground,
we were always skipping town And I was thinking on the drive down,
anytime now
He's gonna say it to love,
you never called it what it was Till we were
dead and gone and barely checked the pulse
Come back swearing it's the same after three months in the grave
And then you wondered where it went to as I reached for you
But all I felt was shame and you held my lifeless frame
And I know it's long gone
and there was nothing else I could do
And I forget about you long enough to forget why I needed to
Cause there we are again in the middle of the night
We're dancing round the kitchen in the refrigerator light
Down the stairs,
I was there I remember it all too well
And there we are again when nobody had to know
You kept me like a secret but I kept you like an oath
Sacred prayer and we'd swear to remember it all too well
And maybe we got lost in translation,
maybe I asked for too much
Maybe this thing was a masterpiece,
so you tore it all up
Running scared,
I was there, I remember it all too well
And you call me up again just to break me like a promise
So casually cruel in the name of being
honest I'm a crumpled up piece of paper lying here
Cause I remember it all, all,
all
They say all's well that ends well But I'm in a new hell every time
You double crossed my mind You said
if we had been closer in age maybe
It would've been fine
And that made me want to die
The idea you had of me, who was she?
An ever needy, ever lovely jewel
Whose shine reflects on you Not weeping in a party bathroom
Some actress asking me, what happened you?
That's what happened you
You who charmed my dad with self-effacing jokes
Sipping coffee like you were on a late
night show Then he watched me watch the front door all
night Willing you to come
And he said it's supposed to be fun,
turning 21
Time won't fly,
it's like I'm paralyzed by it Like to be my old self again
But I'm still trying to find it after pleasure days
And that's when you made me your own Now you
mail back my things and I walk home alone
But you keep my old scarf from that very first week
Cause it reminds you of innocence and it smells like me
You can't get rid of it
Cause you remember it all too well
Cause there we are again,
when I loved you so Back before you lost the one real thing
you've ever known It was rare,
I was there,
I remember it all
too
well
Wind in my hair, you were there, you remember
it all Down the stairs,
you were there,
you remember
it all It was rare,
I was there,
I remember it all
too
well And I was never good at telling jokes
The punchline goes,
I'll get older but your lovers stay my age
From when your Brooklyn broke my skin
and bones I'm a soldier who's returning,
have her wait
And did the twin flame rose paint you blue?
Just between us,
did the love affair mean you two?
Cause in the city's barren gold I still remember the first
fall of snow
And how it glistened as it fell
I remember it all too well
Just between us,
did the love affair mean you all too well?
Just between us,
do you remember it all too well?
Just between us,
I remember it all too well Just between us,
I remember it
And
in my hair,
I was there,
I was there,
I was there Down the stairs,
I was there,
I was there,
I was there Sacred prayer,
I was there,
I was there
It was rare, you remember it all too well
And in my hair,
I was there, I was there,
I was there
All too well