So I was gonna marry the first guy I dated Back when I had braces and love wasn't complicated And now I stand at my friend's weddings Wondering if I'll ever be ready Thought there'd be nothing better than life in my twenties Back when Nickelodeon at 10am was funny But I'm new to saying lately that Most the time I'm faking laughs And I'm not quite sure when it happened When they've been lost all over magic Am I learning or just hurting? No, I'm not the girl I was before Head to my waist, I cut it short Am I better off untorn? But I don't take pictures anymore No, I'm not the girl I thought I was It's pessimism growing up Am I dated? I'm not sure But I don't take pictures anymore No one else can stay out dancing long as I did Now I'd rather stay home and hope I don't get invited Am I changing or getting older? Is the party already over? And I'm not quite sure when it happened When they've been lost all over magic Am I learning or just hurting? No, I'm not the girl I was before Head to my waist, I cut it short Am I better off untorn? But I don't take pictures anymore No, I'm not the girl I thought I was It's pessimism growing up Am I dated? I'm not sure But I don't take pictures anymore Gone wasting nights behind a lens Maybe it's fine if I forget Guess I'm just waiting For something worth framing Yeah, what's the point of looking back On memories just made for flash? Guess I'm just waiting For something worth framing No, I'm not the girl I was before Head to my waist, I cut it short Am I better off untorn? But I don't take pictures anymore No, I'm not the girl I thought I was It's pessimism growing up Am I dated? I'm not sure But I don't take pictures anymore