Oh yeah, what?
Sorry, decent joke, I'm feeding demons
Thinking that's a problem with the meds or my head
Instead I'm alive, crumbling, so they'll laugh at friends I'm red
Flaming spoon theories that do me a little seriously, deliriously
Working at their stupid motherfucking voices out of my head
Beef with the scene, the race, being a pop motif
Skullhole, never changing, disbelief in the moment
Or abuses the crow
Praying on teens to be an all-time low
If it wasn't the norm, it had me * show
You try and tell me this is how it's gonna go
Now you blame it on a
Defender or a member with a temper
As if he's a lone offender
Putting victims at the center
Being dead to remember
So I thought, guess not
Those are just the ones that got caught
Open scenes just help me forgot
Thought that they were hot shots
Then they get shocked when they're albums
These are the rings of kings I gotta kiss
There's a lot of * I gotta miss
But these asses gotta learn that every king's a boss
Nature's on the scene, now I'm coming for you all
Do I have the mind to fight
Despite the fact that I'm a member
The path I'll walk alone
Or would my will record be found before
I've ever found a home
I just need a spark
To bring this thing to life
And now it might be time
To wait till I die
Something in my head's not right
It's always *** or suicide
My brain keeps on bouncing back and forth
To all the different places it would rather be
Gotta leave this place tonight
After a year, two years, three years, four years
I'm cooped up inside
Telling family all about the city
I lived for years but I've never seen
But I can't keep up the pace
Trying to eat three meals every day
While balancing PT and therapy
To fight the entropy
My body's breaking more all the time
Got a needle in my eye
Doctors stabbed and fill up the line
That doesn't lower, it's mounting back
Searching city circuits directly into my spine
I've got to get away
Before I lose my mind
There's no way I'll make it again
There's no way I will without my friends
It will take all my love to break the sickness
That pulls me down
But all my love is not enough
There was a band I listened to
They had girls from my high school
Now their songs make me sick
I wish I didn't have to hear them on the radio
There was a singer I saw live
Choked a girl, she almost died
Now every time they play
I say something just to find out you already know
They said this through the scene
I won't swear my loyalties
Decrease with bad intentions
I can keep the condescension
I can do this on my own
But I know that that's not true
I need to find my people
Who will fight alongside me
For the community that wishes me better
And on my own
I've got to get away
Before I lose my mind
There's no way I'll make it again
There's no way I will without my friends
It will take all my love to break the sickness
That pulls me down
But all my love is not enough
To New York or down south or L.A.
After last May all my friends moved away
And I chose to stay in Back Bay
I chose to stay while my friends moved away
Did I stay cause I was afraid
Tell me it'll be okay
Tell me to stay
If you have the mind to fight
Despite the path I'll walk alone
Oh, I know I haven't done it
Done before I've ever felt at home
I just need to find
The real mistake in life
And now it might be done
But I know I ain't done
If you have the mind to fight
Despite the path I'll walk alone
Oh, I know I haven't done it
Done before I've ever felt at home
I just need to find
The real mistake in life
And now it might be done
But I know I ain't done
I got no flames, I'm just rubbing sticks
The pain in my hands and my heart says I'm over
But I keep on pushing my way through the night
Praying some friction and time sparks a light
Fireworks in my fingertips just aren't enough
Emotional vertigo got me * up
While the dark of the night starts to tremble
And bite at the bark of my neck
Monsters lash at the rest of my bones
While they crack when they wait, I've had it all
Creatures come out, they come feastin' when I'm full
They're waiting to break me and no one can save me
But I've got these demons to kill
And I won't let them take me
I won't let them take me