People told me go seek some help,
get some medication,
told me they'll help with my frustrations,
clear my brain from the negative emotions.
One time in Mary Jane, clear my brain,
lay even distant from the world in my own place.
Do you see my rage?
Explain why I'm feeling this pain.
Why I feel this way?
Hard to embrace,
pale in the face,
why are my thoughts so cancerous?
Why does the cannabis want to clear my mind from this?
God, can you please answer this?
Why is my life so glamorous?
I feel like I'm about to combust,
feel like the world around me is crumbling,
I'm about to fall beneath,
trying to stay alive,
trying to make the ends meet,
trying to keep the demon away from me,
push the devil away,
pick and choose a wanted race,
life full of complexions,
creating a raw,
unstretched world of protection,
no need for the depression,
I know my life ain't perfect,
but life is worth it.
No one can change you but yourself,
even when your life goes to hell,
pick up the pieces where you fell,
then my father bailed before I was a toddler,
made me want to scream a little louder,
definitely can't even stack them dollars,
can't even pay child support,
why you put me here if you can't be here,
come on,
just being sincere.
Crazy that you got the money and changed
your sexuality but not pay for your child,
where's your sympathy?
Can't even think about me,
quit the reefer,
quit the beers,
maybe become sincere,
try and fix abandoning years,
why you think I carry all the fears?
Where's the protection?
Worry about getting your dick wet,
then being a parent,
at least I can see my child after
it's development,
why you think I'm distant from the world in my own place?
Crazy I ain't smoking Mary Jane,
why the castle Sanford is?
Why can't thoughts just vanish?
Don't you think I'm already damaged?
My mind and heart can't take this.
Yeah,
time to claim a head what you did to me over these past years.
Motherfucker.