I pulled it off the wall and held it in my hands The cold steel and wood turned a boy into a man I held the hammer back, fingers all red from the rust And I knew exactly where daddy hid the shells from us I left a note by the stove sayin' I wouldn't be too long I didn't want mama to call or come lookin' where I'd gone I've been blinded by the pain and I only had one thought I set off for the woods, pockets jingled while I walked My hands were shakin' oh so bad, I could hardly hold that gun I shoved around into the magazine, it was my last chance to run If this is a cry for help, I'm cryin' out loud, help me understand When I let it go and it hit the ground, turns out God had other plans I felt the hand of God as he led me off that ledge I left that rifle lyin' there in the leaves with my regrets Silhouette still in the paint where it hung up on the wall Reminded me that I was saved when I coulda lost it all My hands were shakin' oh so bad, I could hardly hold that gun I shoved around into the magazine, it was my last chance to run If this is a cry for help, I'm cryin' out loud, help me understand When I let it go and it hit the ground, turns out God had other plans My hands were shakin' oh so bad, I could hardly hold that gun I shoved around into the magazine, it was my last chance to run If this is a cry for help, I'm cryin' out loud, help me understand When I let it go and it hit the ground, turns out God had other plans Turns out God had other plans