I I What if life is simple as a hug what if my partner wasn't crippled from a drug What if my other homie never caught a slug? What if our parents actually gave a fuck another black suit another black suit police happy to see another black shoe? His mother's makeup smearing on my arms crying cuz I'm the only son that she got now that he's gone What if the ghetto never heard an instrumental and we didn't have this rap shit? All we had was metal you telling me if we couldn't shoot a ball our life still got shooting involved And what if I never left out of Denver that winter for new beginnings? My father started his business and trade the family for riches You telling me that my auntie was still have a house to live in and Jojo wouldn't be writing me from prison But fuck it. This is life Deal with it I get dealt with I'm in my room smoking alone like I'm selfish some days the Sun's hard to face Dad Tom's his son wears his face But look close to see the heart of a lion thinks the stones gonna damage my bones harder than I 170 pounds Oh It's lost in the darkness Oh What if money wasn't part of success with the people I used to be friends with never left What if making a name didn't come with regrets? I think the fames a precursor to death death of a friendship death of a family death of a man Misunderstood are always dead before they understand still in the ceiling fans chop a milligram draw a pentagram Lucifer's not a rumor. He's in the band liquor and vomit on my converse bright lights and pack concerts and right next to the gun that's on my dresser a plastic orange bottles of peer pressure and I'm Ready to cave live in the cage. How can I be a hero when I'm the one eating saved 48 hour days? And it's fast lane living me and my eyes are eyes. No Jeremy pit the list It's better to burn out to fade away as we curse it I felt the same until I saw his daughter and daughters a father. What if tomorrow the only way I could spoil it was dying Started crying to pop the value No Oh So what you do when the cop lights turn into a stage in a spotlight and everyone around starts to hate cuz you got Right and feeling title like I supposed to stop living my life. Well, this ain't Tupac. This ain't M This ain't jiggle man, this that kills flow this that seat down 19 double X reps Oh, welcome to my life. Here's a ticket to the next show