♪ Yuh ♪ Look, me and Lil Sandra baggin' CDs and a bubble wrap People recognize me from the TV, but I'm done with that People don't wanna see me succeed, this shit come with that Even when I come back, I don't know if it's me that's gonna be comin' back Soon as I left, I had to make peace with that Dropped out of school, cause nobody was teachin' that The best Westerns where a nigga was sleepin' at Damon College bookin' me to pull up and speak the facts Even if they make a movie bout us, this shit'll be hard to reenact Dislocated shoulder, it's hard to be always reachin' back All these IOUs, it's hard for me to be keepin' track Friends are dedicated, they like to just keepin' me intact Hard to pay 40, pay Noel, pay Nico back All the nights I needed to vent to someone that CJ sat All the nights Chubbs was pullin' up where I need him at All the times Mark was makin' sure that my luggage pack At times he had to double back I mean, even with a salary, you can't put no prices on that There is no salary cap, there is no payin' him back For real I wonder what it could've been if I had snakes in the mix Actually, I never wanna know, cause we made it like this Shots gotta fly either way, now I make it or miss Overtime hours all good, we takin' in shifts What would you do if it wasn't this? That's a hard one The finish line is where I like to pull up and start from Pain is just a place that I go to get the bars from Anxiety's a drug that I use to get the job done Delusional's a space I like to think that I'm far from My son is the one thing I hate to be apart from Bet against me, don't know where they gettin' the odds from I know that when it's done, I'm goin' wherever God's from But I still don't know where I get the calm from Gotta hold my head high with two dry eyes I told you everything is fine, dawg, but I lied I be tryna draw the line, but it's a fine line And I'm drowning out the noise from the sideline Sometimes it's louder than the voice I got in my mind I can't even hear myself when I get quiet time Like how they tellin' me I'm dumb when I'm in my prime They been tryna push the narrative since 09 And they even had my ass convinced a couple times But that ain't even a half, I had tougher times Only look for sympathy inside my mother's eyes And it's whatever with them niggas on the other side We got problems we can never really put aside I cracked the door for us all, put my foot inside I tried to kill them boys with kindness, but they wouldn't die So now I kill them all for actin' like they couldn't die My hard work doesn't just pay off, it pays all the family debts off I'm takin' heads off, future out here like Irvin' Hayes off Houses paid off, label paid off, my soul for the money wasn't the trade-off Unlike most of you boys that fade off, I feel guilty takin' some days off Please don't Google my net worth, the numbers are way off I mean if you comparin' it to what I really made off with I'm more like Bernie with all the earnings that they came off Trust me, it was nothin' like homes They tried to give me a slice of the pie and I took the knife home I know you love me, can't picture bein' a hubby Finger too stubby to fit a ring on, unless Kawhi wanna run it back Other than that, the strings will be unattached Certified lover boy, I'm not the one for cuddlin' or none of that Y'all music gets watered down when you love him back And you know what I'm on, blowin' pasture, ownin' masters Said you like a father figure to me, but now daddy's not around so I'm a bastard Oh, of course, the only villain that show remorse when I owe you more Soft spot for all of the ones that came before, I can't ignore it I'm always tryin' to rekindle From the bottom to the top, man, what's it like in the middle? From the lemon-faced radio host that love to be bitter To my dogs in the game who wasn't pickin' the litter For the young Gs out here startin' from the beginnin' Nobody prayin' for you when you winnin' Don't forget it It's tough, but the memories start to fade away So beautiful So beautiful