I walked through the door with you
The air was cold
But something about it felt like home somehow
And I left my scarf there at your sister's
house And you've still got it in your drawer even
now
I'm a musician and my wide-eyed gaze We're singing in the car,
getting lost upstate
Autumn leaves falling down like pieces into
place And I can picture it after all these days
And I know it's long gone and that magic's not here no more
And I might be okay, but I'm not fine at all
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Cause there we are again
on that little town street
You almost ran the red cause you were looking over at me
Wind in my hair,
I was there,
I remember it all too well
Photo album on the counter,
your cheeks were turning red
You used to be a little kid with glasses in a twin-sized bed
And your mother's telling stories about you on the t-ball team
You told me about your past,
thinking you'd future me
And you were tossing me the car keys,
the patriarchy
Jeans on the ground,
we were always skipping town And I was thinking on the drive down,
anytime now
He's gonna say it's a love,
you never called it what it was Till we were dead and gone and buried
Check the pulse and come back swearing it's
the same After three months in the grave
And then you wondered where it went to as I reached for
you But all I felt was shame and you held my lifeless frame
And I know it's long gone and there was nothing else I could
do And I forget about you long enough to forget why I needed to
Cause there we are again in the middle of the night
We're dancing around the kitchen in the refrigerator light
Down the stairs,
I was there,
I remember it all too well
And there we are again when
nobody
had to know
You kept me like a secret but I kept you
like an old sacred prayer And we'd swear to remember it all too well
Well maybe we got lost in translation Maybe I asked for too much
But maybe this thing was a masterpiece Till you tore it all up,
running scared
I was there,
I remember it all too well
And you call me up again just to break me like a promise
So casually cruel in the name of being honest
I'm a crumpled up piece of paper lying here
Cause I remember it all,
all,
all
They say all's well that ends well But I'm in a new hell every time
You double crossed my mind You said if we had been closer in age
Maybe it would've been fine And that made me want to die
The idea you had of me, who was she?
A never needy, ever lovely jewel
Whose shine reflects on you Not we'd been in a party bathroom
Some actress asking me what happened to you
That's what happened to you
You who charmed my dad with self-effacing jokes
Sipping coffee like you're on a late night
show But then he watched me watch the front door
all night,
willing you to come And he said it's supposed to be fun,
turning
21
Time won't fly, it's like I'm paralyzed by it
I'd like to be my old self again But I'm still trying to find it
After plagiarized days and nights when you made me your own
Now you mail back my things and I walk home alone
But you keep my old scarf from that very first week
Cause it reminds you of innocence And it smells like me
You can't get rid of it
Cause you remember it all too well
Cause there we are again when I loved you so
Back before you lost the one real thing you've
ever known It was rare,
I was there,
I remember it all
too well
Wind in my hair, you were there,
you remember
it all Down the stairs,
you were there,
you remember
it all It was rare, I was there,
I remember it all
too well And I was never good at telling jokes
But the punchline goes I'll get older but your lovers stay my age
From when your Brooklyn
broke my skin in bolts I'm a soldier who's returning half her weight
And did the twin flame bruise paint you blue?
Just between us,
did the love affair maim you too?
Cause in the cities,
glaring cold I still remember the first
fall of snow
And how it glistened as it fell I remember it all too well
Just between us,
did the love affair maim you all too well?
Just between us,
do you remember it all too well?
Just between us, I remember it all too well
And in my head, I was there, I was there
Down the stairs,
I was there, I was there
Sacred prayer,
I was there, I was there
It was rare, you remember it all too well
And in my head,
I was there, I was there
Down the stairs,
I was there, I was there
Sacred prayer, I was there, I was there
It was rare, you remember it
And in my head,
I was there, I was there
Down the stairs, I was there, I was there
Sacred prayer, I was there, I was there
It was rare, you remember it